Of course I have to add something to this!
Somewhere JWM pointed out that part of what he called 'essential dubiety' is "being onto yourself."
It's knowing that finally, you know you're a fake.
Even after getting your PhD or whatever.
And giving up forever your innocent entitlement to think so highly of your false sense of 'integrity.'
Like "111 fights and never took a dive!"
So that you can finally surrender to God "the deed that has become necessary, and is nevertheless . . . free . . ."
And see that even Jesus, who was his disciples' Lord and Master, was, at some level, a fake.
The disciples knew it, because they knew Mister High and Mighty had to take a shit every day just like everybody else.
And Jesus knew he was a fake Messiah, even as he rode into Jerusalem on a donkey and was mocked as 'King of the Jews.'
Giving up his moral integrity as a pacifist was necessary for Bonhoeffer to be radically free to participate in the plot to assassinate Hitler.
And to accept his own death as the consequence.
Finally deciding to play 'the Role' that you know you're essentially unqualified for allows you, nevertheless, to participate in bending history.
So who cares that Martin Luther King, Jr. and Jack Kennedy and Bill Clinton screwed around (literally)?
Or that Joe and Lyn Mathews were alcoholics?
Marshall