This article about imposter phenomenon seems to document the discovery of one of the states of being in the other world in the midst of this world — either 8 total exposure or 13 essential dubiety.  Mathew’s frequently referenced this state of being with his descriptions of running to the toilet to vomit.  Read it. Am I deluded?

Not Fooling Anyone
https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2023/02/13/the-dubious-rise-of-impostor-syndrome

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