Essay by Rev. Aurelia Dávila Pratt
March 12, 2020
Even though my current context is theologically progressive, I am entangled in supremacy theology. I need to break free. I define supremacy theology as any theological framework that is propped up by systems of oppression. These domination systems, such as (but not limited to) racism, sexism and homophobia all tend to thrive under the umbrella of white supremacy.
Supremacy theology is sustained across all Christian traditions through its doctrine and practices.
Liberation work is my antidote to supremacy theology. It is the work of freedom from oppressive power structures that have us bound. We name these structures, we confess our complicity in sustaining them, and we repent through their dismantling. My process for dismantling is called ambitious fasting. It is best understood through the definition of fasting God provides in Isaiah 58:1-12. At the heart of the Isaiah text is verse six, in which God says “Is not this the fast that I choose: to loose the bonds of injustice, to undo the thongs of the yoke, to let the oppressed go free, and to break every yoke?”
Ambitious fasting is a decisive shift away from doctrine-obsessed inaction and toward liberation, which is concerned with the here-and-now. As people of faith, Liberation work is our calling.
When referencing this shared responsibility, I often use terms such as Resurrection Work, Peace-making, One-ness Work, and Kin-dom work. These are all a part of the restorative work of Liberation. It is an often disruptive and highly uncomfortable job, but I have rolled up my sleeves, hunkered down, and am totally committed.
However, as a woman of color (WOC) faith leader, the perpetuation of a theological framework largely informed by white supremacy continues to cause me significant harm. Part one of this article will explore how supremacy theology holds me captive to its oppressive ideologies, even as I participate in the work of Liberation. Part two will name the specific messaging I seek to break free of, as well as offer a healing process for all of us.
While this article focuses on my experience, the ideas presented are relevant to anyone engaged in justice work. Our ministry, pastoral care, writing, coaching, preaching, teaching, consulting, advocating about Liberation is not sustainable as long as we are not active participants in our own inner work. Liberation absolutely must begin with self-reclamation.
We must each explore the question: What is keeping me bound? This is a prompt that is always with me, offering guidance as I seek to break free from the supremacy theology that has shaped much of my life.
Every week, I make sacred art with my faith community. I use a lot of language to describe the work I do: I’m a pastor. I’m a preacher. I’m a social worker. I’m a teacher. I’m a student. I’m a wanna-be mystic activist who has a hell of a lot to learn. But my favorite descriptor is I’m a paradigm shifter. I think this is most fitting because I spend most of my time and energy cultivating relationships, creating content and providing safe space so that necessary paradigms can shift. This is my beloved contribution to Liberation work.
In my small, but mighty community, we are shifting from spiritual observance to ambitious fasting. We are shifting from a history of exclusion toward an inclusive, centered-set ideology. We are shifting from the Church as a domination system and prioritizing healthy, equitable community instead. We are moving away from oppressive theological frameworks in favor of the prophetic wisdom tradition of Liberation Theology.
This shifting is a constant movement that considers all of creation and requires continuous effort. We are putting new wine into new wineskins. We are letting the church die so that it can be reborn. We are becoming the Transfigured Church, almost unrecognizable as we abandon our shackles. It’s tiring and difficult, yet valuable work. I am grateful to be a part of changing the narrative with an entire community of kindred souls.
However, I must turn inward and assess my own need for Liberation. I must do this with the same attention and loving-kindness in which I do it for my community. This inner work involves the same steps of Liberation as on the macro level, which I mentioned earlier: naming wounds, confessing complicity and repentance through dismantling. However, before I can truly begin this healing process, I must make some important acknowledgments.
First, I acknowledge my particular privileges. I am cisgender, heterosexual, and able-bodied. I am financially stable, young, and educationally privileged. As a pastor, I hold a position of power within my church and community.
I also acknowledge my intersections. My womanhood as well as my Chicana/Filipina experience predominantly shape my understanding of living within the confines of a patriarchal and white supremacist paradigm.
Finally, I acknowledge my perspective as both a limitation and a strength. I have much to unlearn and learn. But part of my education is listening to my inner voice and instincts and trusting that my own experience has value to add to the theological conversation.
I lend my voice to this particular conversation because I know my experience does not live in isolation. Women clergy will understand. Actually, many women who work in male dominated professions will understand me. Speaking specifically from within my field, being a woman pastor can feel like a hazing process that never ends. Fewer job opportunities, less pay, double standards or tokenism are to be expected.
If you are lucky enough to get the gig (that you are likely overqualified for), you have to work twice as hard as your male counterparts in order to a similar level of respect from colleagues, laypeople, and prospective members. Meanwhile, you will also have to navigate regular interaction with male clergy in your community, assuming you get included. And no matter how hard you work, you will still get asked where your husband is on a regular basis.
Even in a progressive context, people cannot fathom a woman pastor working independently. Many women pastors experience all this while also juggling the care of their family’s households, often as the primary caregiver to their children. And if they don’t, they often have to deal with the stereotypical assumptions that arise for daring to be identified outside the labels of “wife” or “mother”.
Personally, it’s no wonder I consistently go through a cycle of insecurity, agonizing, questioning and self-loathing before I can actually get to my work. I am strong and resilient so the work gets done, and I do it well. But not without first crossing over several mental and emotional hurdles threatening to keep me bound. It’s a time consuming and frustrating practice. This oppressive theological messaging comes at me regularly and with full force. It is so deeply rooted into my consciousness that it prevents me from stepping into the fullness of my Imago Dei.
It is during my sermon preparation when I take notice of this messaging most often. I have been writing sermons for nearly a decade. I have grown in both skill and confidence, and I believe I am a good preacher. Yet I continue to be overcome by a sense of incompetence and dread the process every time I prepare a sermon. For years I thought myself self-centered for agonizing about something that has little to do with me and should have everything to do with the Christ-agenda of radical love. It was only until very recently that I was able to verbalize what is taking place. Every time I write a sermon, I go through this process of breaking free from supremacy theology.
As a woman of color whose theological training took place primarily from and among white men, the best thing I ever did was put down the commentaries. While I still make use of them as needed and continue to value thoughtful biblical exegesis, waking up to my imago dei required putting them away. This forced me into the work of learning to trust the Spirit of God dwelling in me, which has made me a better preacher and pastor. And bonus: I am better positioned to name (and soundly reject!) the messaging that has previously kept me bound.
In part two of this article, I will name the specific microaggressions and messages I need to break free of as a WOC faith leader doing Liberation work. I believe this naming is an essential part of the healing process. Supremacy informed theology has ingrained in me the subconscious belief that I am less than, I should shrink, I don’t belong, I can’t be trusted, and my voice has nothing to contribute.
But my work as a paradigm shifter speaks against the lies of supremacy theology. Instead, it has its roots in Imago Dei theology, which suggests that each of us were made in God’s own image. Imago Dei is why we do the work, beginning with ourselves. It is why we ask the ongoing question “What is keeping me bound?”
Surviving is not good enough. But if we are going to thrive, we must be free of anything that keeps us from the good work of Liberation. This idea of breaking free is something each one of us ought to consider for the sake of our collective wholeness.
Our ability to thrive is limited when we are not fully living into the power of our Imago Dei. But the catch is: if one of us is bound, so is the other. You aren’t free until I’m free. And I will never be free until you know the fullness of Liberation. We are connected. We are in this gritty and beautiful work together.
~ Rev. Aurelia Dávila Pratt
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About the Author
Aurelia Dávila Pratt is the Lead Pastor at Peace of Christ Church and is a licensed Master of Social Work. Her sermons and writings steer the listener toward contemplation while also boldly tackling social issues of the day. She prioritizes the work of Peace, believing it to be both a vertical and horizontal process that is disruptive and uncomfortable, but mystically healing. As a pastor, she promotes safe and creative space for all to participate in this work.
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