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<div><font face="arial" size="2">Thanks to all who sent greetings for the day.<br>
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<div class="MsoNormal">They were monks during the Vietnam War who protested the
continuing presence of American forces and the tragic conduct of an unpopular
war of attrition. Their method was
self-immolation in busy thoroughfares for maximum publicity. With their bodies, they called attention to a
situation that demanded a radical response.</div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">Charles Moore in some quarters was dubbed a madman. At 79-year old retired United Methodist
Minister colleague who I knew briefly in the late 70s, his teenage son once
given to our family's care in Saskatoon while parents conducted training in
India, doused himself in gasoline and lit his being up in flames in Grand
Saline, Texas. Those unfamiliar with the
profundity of the Buddhist act of self-immolation were quick to condemn Charles
as a kook. </div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">Emile
Durkheim categorized suicides into four types: egoistic, altruistic, anomic
(moral confusion), and fatalistic. Self-immolation
involves and covers all counts, in his estimation. It is an act of despair and defiance, a symbol
at once of resignation and heroic self-sacrifice. Self-sacrifice is big in Christendom with the
image of the crucified Christ so folks like quiet but dour Charles, consumed
with a burning cause, who takes on the ultimate self-sacrifice.</div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">Today
marks the end of my 69<sup>th</sup> year in the Gregorian calendar and the
first day of my 70<sup>th </sup>year in the lunar one of the Far East. No, I am not anywhere close to
self-immolating. I am mesmerized by the
metaphor of having one's being in flames.
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<div class="MsoNormal">The
poetry of light and the metaphor of heat are as old as humanity itself. Light particularly is often compared to
clarity, as the waters of the Aegean Sea was once seen as crystal clear, and
one of Europe's eras from where we derived some of our mental behavior are
those of the Renaissance and the Enlightenment.
The picture of transcendence looking down from Olympus informs this view
of "seeing the light."<br>
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<div class="MsoNormal">Heat is
a bit more immanent. It is all
consuming, the image of the self and the fire as one, completely embraced. This is more than the unity of the <i>Om, </i>or the harmony and balance of the <i>yin-yang </i>in the <i>pugua. </i>It is the flaming
avatar stealing fire for humanity. This
theme recurs in many world mythologies, e.g., Matarisvan in the <i>Rig Veda</i>, and Prometheus in Greece
enabling progress of civilization while Azazel in the Jewish <i>Book of Enoch</i> taught humanity to use
tools and fire. Maui of the Polynesians
stole fire from the Mudhens, the <i>alae </i>birds. The spider for the Cherokee, the coyote for
the Pacific Northwest, the crow from the volcano in the Yukon, the weasel to
the Creek, the rabbit to the Algonquin, and the hare to the Ojibwa, all stole
and provided humanity with fire.</div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">As I
traverse the last 17-16 years of my one-moment-in-time, I adopt the lifestyle
of an embodied scorching avatar rather than the sedate and resigned retiree in
a quad by the metro stop of <i>Hang Kong
Hang Tian Da Xue </i>in Shenyang. My
sword shall be words in <i>englisCHe, </i>sharp
and vivid as they come.</div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">It has
been a long way from the agrarian fields of Cuyapo, Nueva Ecija where I was
born, to the wind-swept Manchurian plains of my current residence. The many causes that added verse and prose to
the interior mythos of my self-story stacks in the database of my memory down
to the level of the unconscious. Now, I
prune the top of my iceberg as my willful engagement in scrapping wayward postings
on walls, washing telephone numbers on steps, picking the trash off the
walkways and sidewalks, and keeping the green of summer in community nodes and
gardens.</div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">It is
the mental self that I immolate. I am not into saving myself for social glory,
nor finding ways to work my name into anyone's marquee. As the term "immolate" implies, it
is my life's goal and daily task to set the "self" aflame, let it
burn into ashen nothing with the heat bringing warmth where needed, and light
where it is shunned. Intrusive but not
coercive, collaborative rather than combative, I side with other selves engaged
in their own self-immolations.</div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">For
now, the warmth spreads amongst young learners prodded to pay attention to
their innate sense faculties, to describe what they see around them, the
objects that they touch, the aroma and odor they smell, the sounds and music
they hear, and the various cuisine of their heritage that they gulp. They are too young to fall into the morass of
abstractions that learning in China imposes.
They are, at first blush, what they sense.</div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">Slowly,
they are urged to narrate their responses to experiences at home, on the road,
at the playground and in school, and start expressing their feelings, of fear
and delight, pointing out things they hate and like. Then they segue into the world of
abstractions that the Chinese language is good at.</div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">Too
young to make their own behavioral choices, they are nevertheless, made aware
of the little things that make them whine at their parents' feet for things
they wish to do. Or, decide to pick-up
their lives and walk! All these
expressed in <i>englisCHe, </i>with CH
characteristics!<i> </i> That's how I am setting myself on fire.</div>
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<div style="clear:both"><i>j'aime la vie</i><br>
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<div><i>yesterday, appreciate; tomorrow, anticipate; today. participate. In all, celebrate!</i></div>
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